Triangle Rambling

There’s a lot of things I could say. I could tell you about…

How my journal entries from the past 4 months are filled with love letters to the Triangle Site. I could say how I’m a religious journaller and have been since I was 12 even though I’m not always so good at keeping good habits. I could talk a lot more about journaling and what it means but what I really want to say is that my recent journal is flush with gratitude for the triangle site and the team and the work we’ve been doing. There’s pages on pages of me writing about another lovely day at work; another day of laughing all day; today we put hats on the roof and how the sky was iridescent today; we had bangers and mash for lunch today and Isn’t that great? Etc. 

You might want to know about Iyanu telling us to remember to stop and breathe everytime a train went past. This lasted a couple weeks and every breath was sparkling. After a certain point I forgot –  I think the trains were passing by too often. I could also explain how one Thursday after work we ended up at the pub where Jack asked us about our favourite parts of the traineeship. I hadn’t properly reflected on the traineeship as a whole before and as I thought back to the four of us 4 months ago and how we’ve changed and grown I felt teary-eyed and sentimental. Change is a funny one and mostly OK but even when it’s good change it still feels emotional somehow.

I could talk about how sometimes at work I feel like a baby learning how to walk (especially at the beginning it was like this!) and I think if you’re open to that experience and can drop your pride this can be really fun. I wasn’t good or knowledgeable about anything carpentry related prior to this and I’m not nearly a professional now but what means the most to me is the confidence I’ve built and the joy I’ve felt while doing that. Learning together with the other trainees has been really sweet and I’ll always look back on this with love !

I think that winter is a hard period for a lot of people. I haven’t mastered it yet but I’m so grateful that I’ve been outside this winter working with the season. I really love the sky and I’ve been lucky to spend time with it everyday. I started writing about the traineeship as a whole and realised that while doing this my mind keeps being pulled back to the big open sky that blesses the Triangle Site. Even though we’re surrounded by tall buildings and train lines, the triangle site for me is that huge stretching sky that lives with us while we work, talk, laugh, eat. Some days it’s nothing but blue, crouching round like one big hexagon. Other days we’re stuck under a thick grey blanket. It’s not as bad as it sounds because the work is satisfying, gratifying and the company is lovely so the skies like exhaust fumes are just another part of the picture. The best part is when you’re getting ready to go home and you get the golden ooze of sunset; peach, pink, fawn coloured clouds saying goodbye to another day of joy and laughter and learning. It feels like a blessing.

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Notes from the Garden